"I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me." - Galatians 2:20
"nor will they say, 'See here!' or 'See there!' For indeed, the Kingdom of God is within you." - Luke 17:21
But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you." - Romans 8:11
One day I was at home and I got tired of listening to the worship music I was playing over and over again. I usually tend to play one or two songs over and over until they aggravate me to no end. Well this day I decided to play a piano instrumental over my speakers and sing my own worship songs to the Lord and pray with Him. About thirty minutes the Lord started to speak heavily to my spirit. He said, "Grayson, why do you search outside of yourself for anything?" He then proceeded to show me that I had been living so sensual. That I was driven by "feeling" His manifest presence. He said, "Grayson, my manifest presence is inside of you. Don't worry about feeling my manifest presence and BE my manifest presence. If my presence is felt outside it came from inside of you out. Not outside of you in. You are my vessel to make myself known to the world." From there I began to be engulfed in revelation. It seems like it all came at once and my brain was trying to keep up.
The heavens have already been opened. I received the revelation that I had been praying for something that had already been done. "When all the people were baptized, it came to pass that Jesus also was baptized; and while He prayed, the heaven was opened." - Luke 3:21 It all made sense now. The light bulb had lit up. Heaven didn't need to be opened because it already had. And not only that, but the Kingdom of God is inside of me. The lamp on the lamp stand doesn't emit light from outside of it. It emits light from the inside. I no longer have to pray to ask God for open heavens like its some distant place. Its inside of me and is already flooding out everywhere.
From there it just kept coming. The Lord started to show me some of the lyrics to the worship songs that I had been listening to. They had to do with the desire to see God. See His face. See His glory. The Lord made it known to me that He had placed these desires in my heart and He was so pleased with me that I acknowledged them, but I was failing to see something. I was failing to see that these desires were fulfilled when I became born-again. That I had seen Him. The Scripture was screaming in my mind. "Have I been with you so long, and you have not known Me, Philip? He who has seen me has seen the Father; so how can you say, 'Show us the Father'? Do you not believe that I am in the Father, and the Father in me?" - John 14:9,10 This stronghold in my mind had distracted me for so long. I was so focused on wanting to see Him myself that I was not able to show Him to others. I am the image of the Father and it is my honor and privilege to show Him to the others who have the same desire as I had. Praise God!
With an unrenewed mind it is so easy to get sucked into the trap of looking to feelings, emotions and other things in the natural to get confirmation. In this place the flesh and the world mold and shape what I believe. This is not what I have been called to. I have been called to walk by faith and not by sight. He has given us His Word that these things are already accomplished. Let us not get sucked into the trap of looking to the natural and get off track. Let us fight the good fight of the faith and let these truths become substance to our spirit. Regardless of what we see or feel let us walk in the Truth that the Kingdom is open and inside of us. Let us walk in the reality of having seen the Father. Let us live from the reality that, wherever we are and regardless of what we feel, the manifest presence of God is there because we are there.